am i pushing myself to the max limit?!?...

after beating the horrible traffic yesterday fm pj/subang to kl..... had a nice and cosy dinner with dad and kt in manhattan fish market in sogo.... talk about life, cashflow and all.....

lemme write this down.... realised this question is up in my head for a long long long time now... dad or mum go 1st?!?...... not to be 'cruel' or anything like that to have that kinda question/thought... but, i guess it's necessary for future 'planning'..... spoken to et and kt about this.... think they also have the same thought...

dad is a very socialise person... same goes to mum... but, mum is way more independent than dad..... lately, not sure because of old age or wat, dad do depend a lot on mum to help him to do most of his things... at times, she's kinda irritated with that.... and i believe there's a limit to everything... oldies owhh oldies...

ok.. back to the topic... that's wat exactly bie and myself 'fought/argued/debated' about yesterday nite over the phone... she on one hand telling me that i should take things slowly and steadily and only up to my capabilities... me on the other hand, i know i need to do more than that...

would say april 2005 is one of the 'stressfullest' months for me... family problems, finance, work, biz, relationship, etc... i broke down couple of times this month, just so lost at times... and initially i tot april 2005 will be an exciting/interesting/fun filled month for me!...

am just thinking am i pushing myself to the max limit at times on certain things..... i think i do at times... over the max limit to be exact..... but wat the heck can i do when all those unnecessary stuffs came at one go and it is still coming?!?... not that i want that.. not that i can control that.... not that i can navigate that..... it's all happening at the same time!!!...

guess... i just got to take things positively.....

just wanna get over every single thing soonest possible... save up some money and go on a major break...

family affair...

mannnnnnnn... another episode of this dad/mum thingie... heated a quite a major arguement and all..... me as a router lah, wat else... thank God, this dun really affect me nowdays.... last time yes.... know both of them too well... once in a while this 'show of affection' stuffs must happen... :) ... taking it very very positively... on top of that, can actually learn some stuffs fm them... :) ...

btw, it's almost one week now...... hope this 'cold war' gonna end soon......

an interesting weekend...

rotaract district superstar hunt on saturday...
'signed up' for public mutual fund sunday...
broke my 'rayban' on sunday...

had an excellent sat evening with the rac dsh... met some rtrs that i didn't see for a way long time... nice food... relaxing ambience.... interesting programme... they hit it off pretty well... altho some minor glitches here and there, but the committee pulled it off brilliantly...

owe vj an appointment for long long long time ady for a presentation on unit trust funds... after almost after a year plus delay... i finally promised to meet him on sunday in ampang point area... very clear presentation by him indeed.... that's when i found out, insurance and unit trust funds are totally 2 different things.... nobody can blame me and my initial thought, esp he is also selling insurance at the same time! :) .... dun think i wanna get any extra policy/insurance anytime soon... i have about 2-3 policies/insurance now.... i didn't want bie to miss this... called her fm her shopping... she came up and vj did the same presentation all over again... questions here and there... ended up sigining... joint account.... but... have yet to tell and confirm with him which account we want... will sort that out by this week... tot of grabbing an account before the 22nd april 2005.... simply because, public mutual is giving 1% free of units until that date...

my 'rayban' finally broke!... how?!?... placed it on top front of my cap... i knew i have the sunglass up there and i removed my cap carefully just to put it back on while coming down fm one of the many ampang point asccelators..... somehow or another the sunglass drop... the right glass came out and the frame on the right side broke... got this feeling lately that i will need to buy a new sunglass soon... feel no more now!... :) ...

owhh ya.... leisure mall still remain one of my fav cinemas despite it is a typical chinese area/hang out..... not so long queue, comfy seats, clean, etc..... sahara is a good movie to watch..... nice special effects.... simple story line.... great cast.... amazing penelope cruz! ;) ...

going insanity insane...

am going craaaaaaazzzeee of one thing which i dun think it's adviseable to write it down here right now.... i really need God's most holy and precious blessings to help me to pull thru this huge 'problem' am going thru now...

never in my life i faced this kinda stuffs before... never so worry about something like this before....

no one..... only God can help right now...

as am typing now... the verse came to me again and again and again... 1 peter 5:7.... "cast all yr worries upon Him, for He cares for you"....... amazing!!!...

thank You Lord!...

o Lord thank You so much so giving me a chance to come into this world,
i pray that You will continue blessing me with Your abundant blessings,
pls cover my body, spirit and soul with Your most holy and precious blood,
thank You Lord!

when am up and happy, i forget You,
when am down and sad, then only i ask for Your help,
am sorry Lord, pls forgive me, my wrong doings and my sins o Lord,
thank You Lord!

every scar on Your body, and every painful whip You received are caused by me,
those nails and scars on Your hands and feet are caused by me,
thnk You for suffering and dying on the cross for me,
thank You Lord!

i beg and pray for Your forgiveness, mercy and compassion,
i beg and pray that you will grant me with all the fruits of the Holy Spirit,
i beg and pray that you will provide me with all the gifts of the Holy Spirit,
thank You Lord!

cleanse me o Lord, clean me fm those dirt i received fm this world,
am very exhausted, tired, weary, worn out, worried and uncertain,
i will come to You o Lord and pls allow me to rest safely in Your arms,
thank You Lord!

thank You Lord!...

don't teach yr grandmother how to suck eggs...

that's the exact 'proverb' one of my good frens use to tell me...... this proverb which also means 'don't teach a duck how to swim'!...

for almost 8 years + am in the logistics line... and, don't think i need any help in terms of doing those 'normal day to day quotations' for clients.... basically had a screwed up morning today... one of our bosses basically changed all the quotations which my other colleague already finished doing!... come on dude... i have been doing this 'style/charges' for the past 8 years or so and the charges are so so so ok with clients, and... you just have to come and changed the whole freaking thing lah?!?..... arghhhhhh... don't you have any other work?!?... i mean this is our 'territory', you dun have to come and disturb us!... on top of that some charges and/or stuffs we do... do bring some little wee bit extra income to the company... and, you yrself as a boss are putting it all off!... dun feel like arguing with you, just because you are my boss... u want it yr way... i do it base on yr way..... at the end of the day, just don't whine and cry over why the sales/marketing team under perform and/or no 'extra income'...

human problems eh?!?...